evilmerc

my casual sex friend both like the thrill of almost being caught during sex. so far we've done it with people in the next room and in a cemetery. his new big thing is wanting to do it in a fitting room. i checked the memories, but couldn't seem to find any tips on how to pull it off. i know i'd obviously have to try and make very little noise, but besides that we aren't sure how to go about it without getting caught. any good places to go? positions that work? any other tips or tricks? he wants to do it at my work, because i'm familiar with thoe fitting room, they wouldn't check to see how i'm doing, and would never suspect me of doing the dirty there, but i'm still not sure it's a good idea...


oh, and other quick one. one of his "spots" is his ear. he's told me before that if my mouth goes near it my pants are coming off whether i like it or not, but i don't know what to do! his lobes are stretched to over an inch, so sucking/biting those doesn't seem like a good idea, and i don't want to end up licking his brain or something. help a girl out?

i can't believe it.

the last relationship was horrible, but the sex was the most brilliant intimacy i've ever felt.. it turned out to be a constant cycle of fighting and much love-making?

so now i'm falling in love with someone who has never given me great sex. and i'm getting worried. moreso looking back now... when the first night i threw myself at him and he took me to his house... he didn't insist on doing the deed? or in the morning? i mean, didn't seem that interested? or what?
wow
i think i am acceptably attractive. and have always been told so.

OK replay in bed:
he fingers me...i get turned on, wow...yes...he's doing it...i touch back...he keeps touching me forever until i nearly get bored...i retract...we'll either just stop or go from there...and if we go from there the rythym is all off and then he cums after minutes.
HA
it is that bad.

he has said he has never had that problem, he is overthinking too much in bed, and it is not attractive. :( he has also said i intimidate him.

am i doing something wrong...ANY advice???

will it last...can i give him a better chance...should i talk to him more? (everything else is great)

THANK YOU!!!!!!

Like we'd miss this.

I realize that I am so far behind in updating this thing. It seems that I blog best when I am gainfully employed in a job that requires little concentration, and I can write freely when unobserved. I'll do my best to catch up.

We are done with Texas, for now. Three days were an avalanche of emotion - taking a little picture and posting it made it possible to postpone the feeling, dealing with it fully. I think writing it all out is how it will work itself out in my head. No time for that till I am home. But since we've left, I want to make this a good and memorable trip for the kids. Put the focus on them, keep them jumping from activity to swimming pool, to some boring historic landmark and back in the wagon for more. Tomorrow will be rough - long day of not much until Albuquerque. We don't have a plan, but it's a big city, somewhere between the Meth Labs, there has to be a Mini-Golf place.

Today was the Carlsbad Cavern, self guided tour of the Big Room. I took a similar tour in the very early 1980's. I was somewhere close to 10 years old, and some things have changed, but it's a staggering natural wonder. I hope some of this sticks in the Boy's head - he's 6, and I remember maybe a dozen things from that age. Something on one of these trips, I hope he remembers. I also hope it's not 25 years between visits, like it was for me.

Sunday will be nice. Some really beautiful sites/sights. We'll talk more when I get back.

Very impressive - but probably better for people who haven't seen the first Christian Bale Batman movie. Tomorrow is just crossing New Mexico, nothing exciting, then one great day in North Arizona and we're home.

Rules: You pick your musical artist, then answer the questions below using their song titles.

Pick Your Artist: METRIC

Are you male or female: Poster of a Girl
Describe yourself: Sick Muse
How do you feel about yourself: Succexy
Describe your current boy/girl situation: Stadium Love
Describe where you currently work: Monster Hospital
If you could go anywhere you wanted to go: Dead Disco
Your favorite form of transportation: Waves
Your best friend is: Raw Sugar
Your favorite color is: White Gold
Favorite time of day: Twilight Galaxy
If your life were a TV show, what would it be called: Help, I'm Alive
What is life to you: Fanfare
What is the best advice you have to give: Love Is a Place

Another conversation in FetLife...
Someone asked the womens what they felt a Real Man was...
Many interesting responses, though mostly uninspired to be honest
But one person responded with a link to Rudyard Kipling's "If"

 

 

( If )

With all this time doing nothing I've let my mind wander. I have figured out why being submissive and used is such a turn on for me. Every guy that I have dated or been with, even my male friends (except my last boyfriend but that was just a bad relationship), treat me like I am fragile and like I could break at any moment. They are always afraid that they will do something wrong it seems like so they do not take control. Their lack of action forces me to be the dominate one in mostly all of the relationships. I think that is why I am so turned on by the idea of a man being the dominate one, of him not being afraid of doing something wrong or hurting me, of taking control being assertive and knowing what he wants rather than "it's up to you". I don't know why they act so intimidated, especially my guy friends, but I believe that is why the idea of being fragile in a sense that I can be pushed around and controlled is such a turn on for me.


Who knew being sick would lead to such revelations....I wonder what's next...

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Wearing this shirt makes me think of someone I know of but don't know. I am not sure if she is a happy person, but she looks like she is in pictures. I am going to pretend that the answer to this is yes, that she is a happy person. A happy person who seems to like stripes.

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Two dollar clearance sweater FAVORITE!

So since about the time our new (pretty cute, with some exceptions) roomate moved in (who just also happens to be an ax fuckbuddy of my fiance 8 years ago) who is a self-proclaimed nympho and has had at least 3 or 4 male and 1 female partner since she's been here (almost a month), my libido and sex drive have gone through the roof. Normally because of all the meds im on, for the past 5 yeras (aas long as my fiance and I have been toghether) i've HAD no sexdrive...a week or so ago, my roomate and I gave my fiance a blowjob toghether. I didn't mind it, I sucked his penis while she licked his balls, and then when it came time for him to ejaculate, we switched, becuase he wanted her to swallow, and I don't do that. Also, a couple of years ago, my fiance talked me into giving him a threesome, and this year, he all of a sudden decided to bring it up. It took forever for me to re-agree to it, but now i'm looking forward to it, but i'm nervous since it's been years since i've been with a woman sexually.
Also, out of the blue today I felt the urge to give my fiance a blowjob. And this time I swallowed...well, most of it...it tasted sorta awful, and there was a LOT of it, but I enjoyed it. He kept playing with my pantyline (and I SO BADLY wanted him to play with me while I blew him) and I wanted sex SOOO badly, and have for the past few weeks, because of the increased sexdrive, but for the past couple of days, we haven't been able to becuase i've had a damned yeast infection that's been driving me INSANE (the itching, burning...) I feel like dragging my ass and crotch across the floor like a dog to make the itching/burning feel better like a dog lol

I don't know where this newfound libido/sexdrive has come from, but i'm LOVING IT! I swear, when this YI is gone, my fiance won't know what hit him! And i'm sure he'll love it too!!

so after yesterday's awesomeness i've decided to never leave without my camera.
( today was a good day too. )

Alright, so next we need to go and look at apartments. We've narrowed the list of places down to five that seem to have 2 bedrooms in our price range and 1 that has 1 bedrooms in our price range that might work, plus the townhouses we've already looked at.

James and I both get out of work at around 3pm today, so I'm going to go pick him up and then we're going to start visiting leasing offices. I'm hoping we can visit everywhere today and then go home tonight and choose one to put in an application with. Then tomorrow, after the warehouse sale, we can go back to whichever place we settled on and put in applications. Or maybe we'll fall so in love with one of the places we look today that we'll put in an application on the spot. We'll see what happens. I think I'd rather look at all of the top choices and then make a decision.

On a completely different topic, I really want my car title to hurry up and get here. James didn't want me to bump up my timeframe for getting something new just so he wouldn't have to learn to drive stick, but I think maybe I want to bump up my timeframe just based on the fact that my Kia is a piece of junk and it's started making a new noise and I'm sick of having to worry about whether or not it's going to break down on me. And I'd really rather take care of the problems by just getting rid of the car rather than keeping the car until it breaks down and then having to ask James to drop a bunch of money (since I don't have any money to drop) in order to get it fixed. Though I suppose if it breaks we could just take public transportation and/or carpool for a while... James may end up carpooling anyway since he's going to have to work in Reston eventually (which he is very not happy about). I dunno. I think after I get my title I'll wait till just before James is supposed to start working in Reston and then I'll take a trip down to Carmax and get them to appraise it and give me an offer. Haven't quite decided yet, which is fine because I still don't have the title.

One of my friends just sent me this link. Has anyone else ever been handed one of these? A woman received it after she rejected Dimitri The Lover's advances. She uploaded it to flickr for everyone's viewing pleasure:



The story behind the flyer is here:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/christoum/3704411688/

so, later in the school year i get to take part in the grand buffet where i invite friends and family to try the food i took part in creating and see my progress. my friends are all scattered across this here united states, my parents are in orange county and my dad has diafuckingbetes so even if they could come out he wouldn't actually be able to eat the food i made. kevin and ron..ugh. i don't even want to get into their damage. if i were with boyfriend still he would be too busy lying to my face to make the effort to come out here.

i really wish i had the circumstances a lot of my friends have. the same support systems, everything. i'm told that theres strength and courage in going it alone, but to be honest i just don't see it. i just see myself as a damaged detached stranger constantly struggling to not lose her mind and herself. thats really no way to be.

Pretty little spot in the Hill Country. My cousin lives out on a ranch because this is just too "big city" for him. They put us up for another night, our and their kids staying up too late, Evren being a total crank until we finally figured out his bottle nipple was clogged. So we are totally ready for our plow through West Texas.

Gosh, tacky_tramp, you've been unemployed for three months. You sure haven't been posting much to your ol' el jay, or commenting on your beloved friends' journals. What have you been doing?

Oh, idk, just RIDING MY ARMORED ELEPHANT THROUGH A HOSTILE AND FIERY WORLD WHILE WEARING NOTHING BUT A TABARD, TWO GIANT WEAPONS, AND PLATE BOOTS:



( More hot dwarven pinups thisaway. )

What about you?

I just volunteered myself to move to Utah in October and take care of my dying grandparents. I am completely serious about this. I feel like I need to do it. I seem to be the only person in my family who is in a situation to do this, and isn't expecting a giant payout. Really, It's just a matter of getting out of my lease......